Hey guys! So today I have to answer to three questions of my "30 day Self-harm challenge", because I didn't have time to write these days.

2- What part of your body is the most affected by it?
My arms and my legs. I cut more often on my arms, but when I cut myself in my legs I cut more.

3- What is your motivation to recover?
Well, I kinda have a lot of motivation to recover. My best friend helps me a lot in my recovery process.

4- Do you consider yourself "addicted"? Why? Why not?
Not really. For me, it would only be an addiction if I cut like three times a week, even if I didn't feel like it. And I only cut when I'm through really difficult times. And at those times I cut a lot.

I saw this this morning on Tumblr. And it hit me like a stone in the face. 

Well, for the ones who didn't understand the picture, this girl is purging. Not because she's sick, but because she wants to get thinner. To become "perfect". I used to be one of these girls that seat in the toilet to purge. It's so sad. It's decadent. It's just depressing that society programmed us to think that size 0 is perfection. Instead of that, society should teach us that perfection comes from the inside. The outside is temporary, it's changes so much during your life. The inside, although it also goes through a lot of changes, the real content of your personality lasts forever. And perhaps we should be more worried about being perfect on the inside, instead of being so obsessed with our outside. But well, I know we live in a fucked up society, and people just judge you from the outside. If people don't like your outer beauty, they don't give you the chance to show them your inner beauty, and this is sad and some sort of stupid for me.
However, there's still some innocence inside of me, and I truly believe that, if each one of us tries to change things, one day, this world will be better. And people won't have to feel insecure about themselves anymore. I dream about this perfect world. Yeah, how dumb of me. 

My Tumblr

http://sapukai-pe-pytu.tumblr.com/
If any of you has a Tumblr, feel free to follow me (: I always follow back.

Hey guys, I'm finally on vacations. So, I'll have a lot more time to update and write on the blog.
Today I'll start a "30 day Self-harm challenge".

Day 1- How long have you been self-harming? Discuss why you started.

I've been self-harming more frequently since the end of 2011/beggining of 2012. I was feeling alone, going through a difficult time, I hated myself so much, I was extremely suicidal. I felt like I was loosing control of my own life. I couldn't control any longer the inner pain I was feeling. And when I started self-harming I felt like I finally had control over myself, like there was some kind of pain that I could actually control. But I easily became addicted and lost control of it. And then, just problems...

Hey guys. There's been a lot going on in my life at this moment. Lots of shit. Never mind. 

I'm starting a new diet. Well, better said, a new way of losing weight. Basically all I do is skiping meals and eating as less as I can. Eventually I throw up. 

Today for lunch I ate 633 kcal, which is too much. I just hope I don't have to eat much at dinner, or I think I'll have to throw up. My weight has become a total obsession...

My feelings

No, I don't promote self-harm, eating disorders or any other thing.
These are my feelings.

Hey guys! Sorry I didn't update much. It's been a difficult time, as usual. I don't have much time, so I'll just some pictures.