Funny, isn't it? Funny how you were the reason I didn't kill myself, and now you're one of the reasons I believe I should do it.

My life right now

Hey guys. I'm sorry I don't update much, but every day is being a constatle battle against myself.
I'm totally tired of all these shit. It seems like everything is getting worse.
My fear of gaining weight is bigger everyday, but at the same time, I can't stop eating. I eat less at lunch, but when I'm at home at dinner my mum always makes me eat a lot, and I don't wanna vomit. But it seems to be the only solution.
These last weeks were really bad because I always felt so hungry, and I gained 400g. I desesperatly need to go to the

Yes, I'm in the 10% of teens that suffer from self-harm. And this percentage is huge, it makes me cry that so many people suffer from this. It is way too many people. And for all of you that suffer from this, keep strong <3 <3

I guess this describes so well a lot of stuff. And, personally, I feel very connected to this post. Because it describes so well everything I fight through. No one seems to notice my effort to lose weight, I still look a fat bitch. No one seems to notice my cuts, because no one really looks for them. And I'm just so afraid one day I end this all. 

Hey. Sorry I didn't update much, but it's being difficult to deal with everything. My depression is getting worse. I have the constant wish to cut myself. But, good news. I've lost some weight. At the moment, I weight 51.2kg- pretty good. I lost 1kg in two days, so I feel kinda proud of myself. I'm getting closer to achieve my goal: 49kg in the end of the month, and on July, 43kg.