Confidence is like virginity, once you lost it, you'll never get it back. So unfair, but so true. When I was ten, I lost all the confident. When you feel that anyone likes you, that you are not accepted by anyone, that you can trust no one, how are you supposed to act? When you think you finally have found a friend that you could spend your days with, that friend does the favor to disappoint you... How are you suposed to feel? 

I've lost the confidence, I'm full with complains, fears, tears, screams, toughts, despair, disappointment, nothing. I wanna commit suicide, I really want to, but it is so hard to think that I'll live the life that I'm used to, to make my family suffer, and my only friend. I feel guilty.