Am I wasting my time talking to you?

Am I? Seriously, I know pretty well what I feel about him, and it is not hard to just leave it. I try hard... But it feels so useless. I'm tired of being the one that is trying to know someone that doesn't care. I feel what I feel, but my proud is always first. Oh God, who am I trying to make fool? I know I'm wasting my time, but I wanna do it though.