I don't want to eat. But, at the same time, everything looks so yummy. And everyone looks so happy when they eat. I eat. And when I do, I eat a lot. I always feel so guilty. Sometimes, when I'm at a party, after eating, I feel so bad that I have to go to the toilet, so I can cry. Because I feel guilty. I hate what I see in the mirror, and that's all my fault. Because I can't control what I eat.