Today, I can write a milion words, a text with 10000 lines, any number, any word, any action can express what I feel righ now.I just want to kill myself, believe me, I've never been so cloose to commit suicide. I feel tired of people, and world, and more than that, tired of myself. I feel so disappointed, I mean, I tought that I would be a lot smarter, a lot more interesting, I just feel unuseless, distant, boring, in summary, I'm stupid and dumb, and I suck.Today it was the 4th time I tried it. I'm fed up of doing things and what I want to happen, never happens... I just wanna shoot by head, cut my rists, take so much marijuana that I have an overdose, and I die, I mean, it is the end, the end of everything! It is perfect in every single way! Anything makes me feel good, I hate myself, and no one can tell me that I shouldn't hate myself, because I do, and I don't hate a few things, I hate everything on me, all things, there is NOTHING that I like about myself. I want to kill myself, shoot my head.